Crying Inside

Assalamualaikum,
Dear friends,
Actually I don't feel like to write anything today... tiring day & nite for me yesterday. Just imagine, I reached home nearly 7 pm...stucked in crazy traffic jammed almost an hour in KL.. with raining and storming. Picked up my hubby at Pusat Islam nearly 6.15... and again stucked in less crazy traffic jammed to Kajang. So there I was thinking and talking to my self... is this what u really want?... go to work early in the morning (before 7 am) and comeback 12 hours after that... where is your Quality time with your kids? How u r going to have ur time "tarbiyah" your kids? More than 12 hours your kids are with stranger (my maid) at home and she will look after your kids until u come home...Thank to Allah, I stay with my mother .. who can "pandang2 jeling2" what is going on at home.. esp during meal time.. sleeping time ...

When I reached home, it was already 7 pm which I haven't perform my 'Asr prayer yet. Seeing Nabil sat with my mother waiting for me ... with his sad face (tak senyum langsung) made my heart criesssss.... very sad when u look at your child's face wanting u to come home earlier and play2 with him. Kene selsema balik... same goes to Baby Naufal... running nose! Kesian nya anak Ummi! I rushed to the bathroom,then prayed... cuddled Baby Naufal, hugged Nabil (marah2 je dia). After Maghrib prayer, we had our dinner.. with Nabil sat together (saje la tu nak kacau hehehe). Having him talking to me with his cute voice and ntah hapa2 tu (hehehe)... just swipe away my "penat" and stress. U must listen to him singing " berkobar-kobar.. di dadaaa" hehehe and his favourite song in Barney n Friends show..the original song is like this :
I love U
U love Me
We are happy family
Would U say U love me too...
but when he sings, it becomes like this:
Ai Ai U
An an ching
U me me toooo
I don't know where the ching comes from hahahaha...
Anyway.. he speaks well, only when it comes to sing a song.. dia ikut suka mulut dia jek :-)

I put Baby Naufal into sleep at 10.30 pm... and I thought I could just lay down.. relaxing and strecthing my foot (drive dlm jem tadi kan..) Out of sudden, Baby Naufal cried and cried... I continued to cuddle him and put him into sleep again and again... until 12 am... Then, I just couldn't remember when I fall asleep until again he cried out loudly.. very loud.. at 2 am. Tak larat sangat nak buka mata.. I called my husband to take over the job.. :-)
Baby Naufal dragged both of us up to 3.30 am .. demanding us to play2 with him.. sian.. maybe tadi tak puas kot main2 ngan Ummi & Ayah dia. Suddenly he cried.. slowly at first, tapi makin kuat dan kuat... I assumed he had "kembong perut"... sian sgt tgk dia... he cried (jerit 2) until 4 am.. I barely open my eyes actually, but listening to him crying like that.. ooOOhh risauuuu sgt2! After giving him ubat angin & letak minyak kat perut, he just slow down... alhamdulillah he falled asleep (penat sgt agaknya).

Terus la tido tak sedarkan diri :-)... sedar2 husband kejut dh 6.30 am... uishhh lambat nanti nih! Dah la tumpang kawan (from Puchong)... I'm telling my self.. kalau la hari ni takde Board Meeting, mau EL hari ni. Sampai ofis, terus abiskan report yg tersadai smlm and send 4 printing. 8.45 am... started walking to the faculty for the meeting. Meeting started almost 9 am.. and bla bla bla.... OOooHhHh they're having good lunch today (sponsored by one of the members)... so I stucked in the meeting until 1 pm... Anyway, worth waiting until the end, I had "chicken chop with gravy sauce... together with fries,vege,fish fillet... nyum nyum nyum...
So that is all my report today... panjang tuuuu :-P